Quit Smoking

I am a tobacco-user since I was 18. I am going to be 36 pretty soon. Cigarette is my nicotine delivery device. I am not a chronic smoker, relatively speaking. I know people that do 2 packs a day (1 pack = 20 sticks), I heard people doing 3 packs a day.  I sometimes hit a pack a day, most days no. Somedays, especially during the weekends, I don;t smoke at all when I am with my family. The reason is very simple, it sets a bad example for my children and more importantly, I want to live longer for my wife would have killed me.

Countless of times, my wife has asked me to quit smoking, and everytime I disappoint her of not stopping. See one of the problem for me is that I find that smoking is a pleasure for me. Honest. I know this is not going to be good and politically not correct. But that is how I feel whenever I wanted to think or get away or release some tension, smoking can be that thing that will allow me to that or prepare me to do what I wanted to do.

It never occur to me to stop smoking. I did not have the intention to stop smoking. I did not really try to quit before. I am not sure why made the decision I made, but I made it. You see, I love Yeefun (my wife), En and Hui (my daugthers) very very much, and I wanted to see them and be with them as long as I can. Don;t get me wrong, Yeefun can drive me nuts and up the wall, but she is too ingrain in me already, I would not want to spend time with any other women. And i want to grow old, as healthy as possible, with them.  So, I decided to quit smoking. I wanted to reduce the risk of me getting tobacco related illnesses, which I gather can be real nasty.

I quit or attempt to quit cold turkey style. And my body is free of nicotine for 11 days solid now. Not sure how long it will last, but I intend to keep it that way as long as possible. Sometimes, even now, I still get cravings not from nicotine addiction, they say nicotine is totally out of my body the first 3 days. Now is more of psychological cravings. You know, one have to smoke to do something. Or one has to smoke after accomplishing somthing or one has to smoke while doing something...kind of thing. I need to pass a lot more days, go through a lot more situations without smoking, and the more I gather those situations under my belt, then I will have less and less cravings. I think I can succeed, I owe it to my family to succeed. Well we shall see.